Capturing Happiness ;

I have no idea what is happening to me. I feel exhausted, but I get a headache when i try to sleep. I dun feel like talking, I dun feel like showing any emotions at all. I just stare into space and let my mind wander. I keep having this particular feeling that my legs will suddenly give way and i'll collapse in the middle of nowhere, unconscious.

I wondered, why is it this abnormal feeling is overwhelming me. No answer appeared in my mind. In fact, my mind was empty, like a nutshell. Then suddenly whoosh, many things bombarded my brain all at once, competing to squeeze into my mind. My head felt like something was grinding into it, like drilling a hole. I could not get rid of that excruciating pain no matter how hard I shake my head.

Then negative things start appearing in my head, pressing down the smile I was trying to force upon my face. I felt inferior, I felt low, I felt useless, I felt worthless. It began to dawn upon me why I could not enjoy myself, why I was feeling so down. It all boiled down to one thing.

I dun like this feeling.
I dun like the way I am now.
I wish it will all go away tomorrow.

I feel inane.

The ignorant girl stared up at the sky innocently,
wondering why the sky wasn't blue anymore.
She then realise,
her perfect world of fun and happiness,
also has dark clouds over it.