Capturing Happiness ;

My birthday is coming up.

Wow, that's all I can say.

Previous years I'll go,

"Yes! A few more days! So look forward!"

Today when going up the escalator,

I thought to myself,

"Oh wow, my birthday is in two days' time."

So, for the million dollar question,

Can someone tell me why I aint looking forward to it at all? ):

I guess it's cos of the previous years.

I look forward to it so much,

and they turn out to be disappointments.

But looking at the circumstances now,

I'm guessing this year's birthday is gonna be my worst birthday ever.

Sighh.

Brother, I miss u so much. ):

You're either so cooped up with church stuff,

in camp, or sleeping.

Now, you wun even be back for my birthday.

Heck, u cant even wish me "happy birthday" on my birthday. D:

I hate NationalService. They steal my brother from me.

Big brother probably as his own stuff.

He seemed so busy and frustrated.

I dun even hope that he'll rmb my birthday,

I just wish that he'll be less troubled instead.

Mama and Papa have been working so hard.

They even forgot my birthday.

They dun seem to care anyway.

Mama only cares bcos she knows how much I treasure birthdays.

My birthday falls on a Tuesday,

Which will be a cca day.

Everyone will be having cca after sch.

Frosties will not be able to celebrate with me.

Neither does anyone else in Rv.

Churchmates all have school that day too,

they'll probably be too busy with their stuff.

Now that my school is so far away,

I cant even go meet them or something.

Bestfriend cannot even go out after school.

Really.really.sucks.

I used to hope my parents will celebrate my birthday with me.

Now, I just hope they'll remember it's my birthday.

Mama asked if I wanted to go out eat tonight,

to celebrate my birthday.

But I told her, tears going to cover my vision,

What's the point?

It all seem so meaningless now.

What's so special about birthdays anyway,

It's just another day in this long journey of life.

I feel so naive thinking how amazing it is.

It's time I grew up.

~~Happy~~ advanced birthday, Grace.

Hello meimei..

Brother will be out field from tomorrow to thursday,

so I will miss your birthday.