Capturing Happiness ;

Computer has become such a scary thing.

Once I turn it on, I wun be able to do my work.

My mind is so weak,

My determination so shallow.

This simply suck

Today had a passionate dicussion with Frosties.

Made me process a lot of thinking.

It all depends, depends on these three terms.

Somehow I've already screwed the first.

Sigh. What to do? Otoke? D:

I'm afraid. Really afraid.

I'm afraid I wun do well,

I'm afraid I wun get acceptance,

I'm so so afraid.

I'm confused. Really confused.

What if my thinking is wrong?

What if it's better to let it be?

What if I will not make it?

I'm so so confused.

Have no idea what my next step should be anymore.

I have never felt so lost before.

God, please help me. Please.
Tell me what your will is for me.

This way I can work towards it, and not travel in rounds.

Some told me Yes,

Some told me No.

When my mum told me "Can you even make it"?

That's when I fell really low.

Can I, even make it?

It's so weird, thinking that we were once best friends. Alright, not best friends since you hated me. But still, all the memories we shared, all the times we went through. And now we are of so different worlds. Thanks for today though, you know, the hush thing. It made me glad knowing that you didnt tease me along with her. I miss you a lot, I miss our friendship a lot. I'm so sorry I let go. But then again, I was glad I did, cos at least I know that you once hated me so badly. I've changed, have you seen it?