Capturing Happiness ;

This is the lesson I learnt yesterday.

Always cherish whatever you have around you. (:

Still pretty disturbed by yesterday's incident,

but yeah, kind of gave me an insight of life.

-SNEEZES-

Sorry, got a little..

-SNEEZES-

Flu. Quite bad actually.

-SNEEZES-

So yeah, if you wanna skip this boring part,

by all means. Hahaha. Just feel like typing out.

Sometimes, we think that running away solves everything.

No confrontation, no rejections, no ugly truth thrown into your face.

Sometimes you think, maybe ignorance IS bliss.
Sometimes you just want to forget about the whole thing,

and pretend it never happened. But when you run away from something,

it will haunt you for life, along with the consequences.

I have done my fair share of running.

In fact, who's still not running away from situations in life?

I still run, avoid confrontation, putting on that sickening mask,

declaring to the whole world that I'm alright.

But deep down inside, I know I'm not.

I cry when I'm out of hearing or seeing distance,

stifling my sobs so that nobody will know.

But I know, I know that after I cry, nothing is solved.

After I break down, the truth in still in front of me.

And there is nothing I can do, to change that.

Running away only helps in a short-term goal.

Running away is only a symptom of self-delusion.

After running away so many times from so many problems,

you will realise, you are back to square one,

with Nothing solved, at all.

So why not stop running, and face the truth?

Let the ugly truth be slapped onto your face,

suffer the pain, the humiliation, for a while.

It's worth it, very worth it.

Because the truth,

It'll set you free.

Okay, i'm back. LOL. Still got a lot of write,

but ohwell, better not. Hahaha.

Actually, looking at ____ reminds me of myself.

I'm just like her,

minus the unreasonable, stubborn, egoistic

and oh yeah, violence.

(And I have better debating skills. =X)

I used to think, nobody understands me.

I even shun my friends, wanting them to leave me alone.

But time proved that my running away,

didn't solve anything at all. All it did,

was worsen the misunderstanding, earned me new labels,

and left me all alone, facing the big bad world.

Till now, my friends have no idea how sorry I am.

Till now, they have no idea how much I've changed.

Till now, I still can't forgive myself.

So now I learnt my lesson.

And so, it REALLY pisses me off,

when I see people who are like the past me.

No matter how people tell you the truth,

you'll just twist the story and claim that they're wrong.

But inside, I am sure, you do know that they're right.

If you are like the past me,

you have to Let Go.

Learn to accept the facts.

1. Never defend yourself when people are criticizing you.

2. Self-reflect on what other people say.

3. Never say that people don't understand you.

(You are the one who chose to believe that crap.)

4. Don't be an ass and not realise that those people are your true friends.

5. Always try your best to change, and not say that's the way I am.

Hey wow, I was just thinking about myself when I wrote that.

And now looking back, she did EVERYTHING that I said not to. =/

"Bottom line": Accept the fact that you are wrong!

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Lol, today's Chem paper was hard, to me.

Every paper is hard to me. T.T
(Wx is gonna say "use softener".)

Was very disturbed, cos every chem thing that I recall,

I remember yesterday's incident.

The image just keeps replaying over and over again,

like a broken recorder.

AHHHH. -hits head-

If you see this, which I really doubt so.

I just wanna tell you something.

Did you know how much hurt you inflicted onto me yesterday,

when you said, "She's acting like she has something to do with this." ?

It hurt, a lot. It just shows how much you think of me.

It means you do not even treat me as a friend.

Like the slap you gave him, the wound is made,

and now I'll never see you the way I did again.

Not everyone is like you,

so capable of running away from problems.

Because words are like a double edged swords,

and what's worse, they are swords that you can never take back.

There were so many words that was supposed to offend me yesterday,

yet it's this one sentence that hurt me so badly.

And you skipped Wx's birthday party cos you thought it was mine. Wow.

So my birthday isnt that important after all.