Capturing Happiness ;

A failed study session, dinner and a walk beneath the stars today. ♥

Never had such a lovely time for so long. Just a walk to the playground, singing our hearts out and playing kids' games. I guess it was the right company that made it awesome. (: I wanna go back to ubin sometime, lay in the grass and stare at the blanket of stars above me. Just like how we did in OBS. It's the most beautiful memory I had. Peace, serenity, and stars.

Had a little heart-to-heart talk, and I was really surprised at what Jessica told us. Then it came back again, the part about trusting people too easily. I've been reminded of this point so many times these few days, maybe God is trying to tell me something. Maybe a warning. The talk made me realise what a scary thing relationships are. You don't go into a relationship just because you like each other, it's a lot more than that. You have to know you want to spend your life with the person, or it will just end up with the breaking of heart(s). It's frightening, how the human heart is so fragile.

Heart. Beats. Fast.

Colours. And Promises.

How to be brave,

How can I love when I'm afraid to fall.

I never want to go through a break-up. I think I will not be strong enough to withstand it. I've seen my brother crumbled because of a break-up, and I'm not able to take that. Crap I'm never gonna be able to get a boyfriend. LOL. But like what Koala said, friends are more important.

My priorities are gonna be: 1) Family. 2) Friends. 3) Boyfriend. So my future boyfriend has to be accepted by my family and friends. (: Hahaha, remember how my brothers set tests for my future boyfriend, say he has to pass the test before they will agree to the relationship. Damn funny. I guess they're just scared I'll get hurt too. After all I'm damn gullible. ):

Worried about Eugene. He keeps saying he wanna drink until he vomit. He is a guy who emotionally-driven, and the things that is happening to him are not to his advantage. I hope he'll be fine soon. Sigh. Alcohol doesn't solve the problem. Hate guys who think otherwise. I think life is too short to let the unhappy things get you down. If a certain thing is making you unhappy for a long time, either let it go or make it into a happy thing. For example: If your parents are being a pain in your ass or overly unreasonable, and since you can't let your parents go, make it into a happy thought ; see it as them showing you concern and afraid something bad will happen to you. Some people actually want their parents to even notice them, but they don't get that. Don't subject yourself to pain or self-numbness. You could be using the time to do something you enjoy and gain happiness from it. (:

1:23am! Here's wishing that all the unhappy people will cheer up and not do anything rash/stupid! There are people out there who still love you! ♥